While I wish I could have stepped up and done whatever my head/heart/gut wanted to do in the moment in this situation instead of overthinking and running, I still don’t really have any regrets. I WILL be that woman eventually, maybe even as soon as next time. I have the capacity. I just didn’t have the confidence. And I think it took me experiencing something that could have been real, could have been something, and essentially ruining it to get it. His inability, or better unwillingness, to stick around hoping anymore very well might’ve been the swift kick in the ass I needed to wake up.
Office Appropriate: Managing Up
Only after I “Noodled Over’ the term further did it become apparant that my “Due Diligence” in the successful excercise of this managerial responsibility would only serve to directly and positively impact the perception of my senior colleague’s managerial abilities, i.e. I realized it’s true meaning. (Jo’van Definition: Managing Up = Learning how anyone above me works, thinks and performs and catering my delivery and workload to their quirks, no matter how ridiculous or egotistical.) Suddenly, empowering transformed into enabling. (I will NOT be an enabler!)
